Yesterday went semi-okay.

Had about 1,680 calories, but I was on my bike for about three hours. So I probably burned at least 400 calories. :)

So... 1,280


I have lost sight of what I want though by falling to temptation to carbs. I will post a picture to remind myself what I'm trying to do and what I want more. :)

Hells yeah! This girl is my COMPLETE inspiration at the moment. She went from 200lbs to 111!! Not by starving. Not by KILLING HERSELF AT THE GYM but by cutting out sugar, processed carbs, fat, and unnecessary calories in drinks and toppings (salt, fatty dressings for salad, croutons, etc.)

Although I don't know if replacing sugar (even cane sugar-which your body will process much easier than chemicals like contained in Splenda) with chemicals is better... I guess its not too bad of an approach. I mean look at her. Holy shit.

Treat your body well and it will love you back. :)

TODAY!

One and 1/2 cups fiber 1 cereal (180) cup of almond milk(unsweet) 40, 1/2 grapefruit-30

(250)

Snack: 1/2 grapefruit-37 1/2 cup applesauce-50 egg white(3)-52

(139)

Lunch: PB&J bread-90 1.5 tablespoons peanut butter-150 2 tablespoons jam(sugar-free)-20, 1/2 cup cottage cheese-80 

(340)

Snack: 4 servings sugar-free jello (40) wheat thins (260)

(300)

Dinner: salmon fillet (180) veggies (35) sweet potato (180) butter (40)

(395)

Total: 1,424 :) Not too bad. I will also do cardio tonight so that should burn at least 300 calories.

Woot woot!

Mini binge. :(

So today went so so. It was avery high stress day since I had to work by myself for 4 hours. That was awesome.

Breakfast- toast-90 sugar free jam-30 grapefruit-45 yogurt-90

Snack- 10 0z skinny vanilla latte-95 1 cup diced pineapple-100

Lunch- bread-90 turkey-45 mustard-0 ice burg lettuce-5 baby carrots-20 1/2 cup non-fat cottage cheese-80

Snack- 4 strawberries-20, animal crackers-170, 1/2 cup almond milk-20, tapioca-70, apple-80

binge- 2 weight watchers big cookie ice cream bars-260 reddi whip-40 3 cups popcorn-20 :(

dinner- chicken-90 veggies-40 sauce-50

And the grand total is.... 1,520! So lol I guess its not all that horrific. BUT STILL. I need to like control myself. Jeez.

Not too bad today. I guess.

I had 1,635 today :S I don't know if that's really all that great but it's been worse I guess. I haven't done my exercise for tonight yet either. Its getting late so I will probably just do a video, or maybe I will get the guts to go to the gym for once. IF I go to the gym.. I will treat myself to sauna or steam room and the hot tub... makes it so much more tempting. :)

We'll see lol. Buses do not run very late so I don't know yet.

I will even add ONE photo of myself.... (with fuzzy hair, sorry lol, just took french braids out.)

Plan for tomorrow :)

Breakfast: small banana(100) 1 tablespoon p.b.(95) two egg whites (34) bread(45)

Snack: Plum(40) 1/2 cup plain yogurt(45)

Lunch: Wheat Thins (130) Non-fat cottage cheese (80) 1 cup sliced cucumber (17) plum (30)

Snack: 1/2 cup pudding (40) apple (80)

Dinner: 1 cup veggies (34) salmon (100) 1 cup rice (200)

Dessert: 1 cup sugar free jello (20) reddi whip (10)

1,105

So I failed yesterday. Naturally. Okay that's negative thinking, and negative thinking usually just gets me depressed. It sucks I ended up eating like 5 handfulls of his popcorn and probably half his bag of candy. Oink. :(

I even brought my own snacks. I just don't understand. I think it was just nerves from all the pop-out horror action of the movie. well, I'll just handle it differently next time!

Today. I had a mini-binge on rice cakes and peanut butter. BUT I stopped myself. Now I'm at 650 calories at 1:25pm. Not too bad. Could be worse. :)

Plan for the night:

plum(30) 1/4 cup nuts(150)

Salmon teriyaki steak(160) 1/2 cup edamame (120) sweet baked potato(150)

1,260 :D Not bad!! Plus I will be doing some at-home workouts cause I know I will NOT want to go outside nor to the gym tonight.

Starting to get back to normal intake...

Yesterday started out pretty well until 3/4 box of crackers later (120 calories per serving, which is a mere SIX crackers and there's 10 servings per box... ) Lol I'm scared to know what my total was.

TODAY!

Tons of food which equaled 1,705. Minus 150 from 40 minutes of running -150
Grand total! 1,555


Not too terrible. About to go to the movies now. :) So I think I will go and invest in some sugar-free candy to keep mah mouth busy lol, and avoid my boyfriends candy I'm going to buy him.

Starting to have a little doubt..

I feel like I'm not doing enough. I know I have fallen off the bandwagon a little with cardio. :( It's merely because my sinus/allergy thing has now made me lose my voice. I don't know if being active will help/hurt that. I will do a little cardio tonight though. :) At least 30 minutes.

So far today, I've had about 1,400 calories. I'm okay with this because it's a pretty good caloric range I think. Long as I don't fuck it up when I see my boy tonight. I can't eat anything else after this tonight....

Rest of today :)

So in addition to the 725 from earlier I had..

1 ice cream ball (100)
2 cup strawberries(92)

1/2 salmon fillet(130)
1/2 cup salad(50)
pita bread(90)

ice cream ball(100)
tea w/ 1tsp sugar(25)

1,312 :D
Not too bad! Plus I'm going to maybe do a little jogging tonight @ boyfriends gym. I did bike for 20 minutes today also.

I had about 1,500 yesterday but because I ran too far and got hurt (very very sore legs) so I didn't run yesterday or do any form of cardio for that matter. :( But we all have bad days.

I am gonna go ride bike for like a half hour with my boyfriend :) I am getting sick though I'm afraid.

I hope not, that would throw off my plan!

Oatmeal-(300)

sugar free syrup-(25)

apple(100)

salad(60)

granola bar(100)

deli meat(140)

725

That's it for now. We're going out and about so we will see how the day turns out. :)