Yesterday and Today

Yesterday 8/5/11

I am actually not sure of my total intake. I have been drinking a lot of coffee with cream (whole or 2%) and a few pumps of vanilla syrup. Those have been throwing me off a bit. But I think I landed in the 1,800 mark.

I also did a beginning running program.. :)

"Week 1: Run one minute, walk 90 seconds (repeat 8 times), cool down afterwards for 5 minutes.
   Do this three times a week."
I should have waited to start this until next week because now the "week one" will bleed into what should be week 2. :/ Oh well. Could just call that a practice day. :P Or call this week one with just two running days since I couldn't do anything today because I overdid it friday. :( Very sore legs!

Today!
Oatmeal (200)
1/2 cup bluberries(50)
1 tblspoon whole milk (10)

1/2 of a small nf cafe au lait with 2 1/2 pumps vanilla (about 155)
3/4 cup rice pudding (195)
Small banana (100)

Medium salad (120)
Whole wheat pita (130)
laughing cow(35)

Coffee samples(35)
1/2 cup bluberries(50)
3 cups multigrain cheerios(330)
1/2 cup 2% (55)

Salmon fillet (90)
Herbs and lemon(10)
small sweet potato(75)
butter(25)
1/2 teasp sugar(10)


1,675


Not toooo horrific. Been worse. :/

How do I abandon this blog so often?

So I am back from a 9 day trip to California (first time being there). Wow... everyone there is HOT. Its not even fair. I felt pale, soft, and fat the entire time. But it also gave me a reason to start trying NOW so that by the time summer comes around again... I will be HOT as well. :D

   So I am going to really try hard to stop bingeing. I saw this article about this girl (age 19) who died from bingeing and purging. Very tragic. The article claimed that her stomach was stretched so far that it went from the bottom of her rib cage to her pubic area. DAMN. That's terrifying. I don't purge... I just binge. I don't even exercise afterwards. I just beat myself up mentally for it the next day... So today I am doing better. I am still going to include yesterday as part of my diet even though I binged because I think its stupid to keep "starting over". Its self-defeating and makes me depressed.

Today.

Oatmeal (200)
Rapsberries (100)
1/4 cup 2%milk (40)
Honey (15)

SIXTEEN CUPS of air-popped popcorn with
3 tablespoons of white cheddar seasoning. :(  I should really stop making air-popped popcorn. It would be healthy if I could not sit down and eat the whole bowl without even getting full....
 I dunno the exact calories and don't care to either.

Wish me luck for the remainder of the day.