4/19/14 (Read it backwards, its the same exact date!! WHOA)
So I was 201 a few days ago and now I'm 197 :D
And I have only worked out twice so far, and yesterday was just a stroll around the neighborhood. The loss could be attributed to not eating as much, and I stayed inside pretty much all day after my walk and did nothing active. :/ Still lost weight!
I had coffee, eggwhites and spinach, ice cream, 3 slices of pizza (b/p'd them), sf jello x2 with grapes and coolwhip, coke zero, 100cal popcorn, and rice with soysauce..
I know, little bits of food all over the place. I swear its what helped though, I kept eating every couple hours so I never got ravenous, except for the pizza -_- God i hate purging. Its traumatizing every time! It's all gross..and messy..smelly.. Bleh. Not a fan.
Todays plan!
Slimrite shake (180) banana (110)
sk1: sweet peas (40), light laughing cow (35)
chicken + salad= (200) ?
sk2: chobani pineapple 100cal, 10 almonds
slimfast bar (200) and buttered brussel sprouts (80)
~aprx=1000 (I have 400 extra calorie wiggle room in addition)
Saturday, April 19, 2014
Saturday, April 5, 2014
So Im reading Wasted by marya hornbacher
Some of my favorite quotes that I have read so far (third time reading this book, so far):
"Bear in mind, people with eating disorders tend to be both competitive and intelligent. We are incredibly perfectionistic. We often excel in school, athletics, artistic pursuits. We also tend to quit without warning. Refuse to go to school, drop out, quit jobs, leave lovers, move, lose all our money. We get sick of being impressive. Rather, we tire of having to seem impressive."
"You have a tendency to firmly attach yourself to anything older and female, collecting mothers in a way."
Both of these things are very true in my life.
Im putting in place new rules:
1400
Slimfast for (breakfast and lunch) along with one of the following:
an egg/fruit/salad/soup/or a half sandwich.
(Dinner) Vegetables, meat, grain, and fat
(Snacks-2) Veg/fruit/yogurt/rice cakes/nuts
(Drinks) Coffee, tea, water, diet soda
Exercise- 1 hour of cardio a day.
Penalties
30 minutes additional cardio per 200 calories over 1400 limit.
Eat 500+ over your limit?? =One hour of cardio additionally to your normal hour. PLUS
10x10 of body weight exercises such as:
Scissor kicks, bicycle crunches, tricep dips, squats, burpees, lunges, mnt climbers, etc...
"Bear in mind, people with eating disorders tend to be both competitive and intelligent. We are incredibly perfectionistic. We often excel in school, athletics, artistic pursuits. We also tend to quit without warning. Refuse to go to school, drop out, quit jobs, leave lovers, move, lose all our money. We get sick of being impressive. Rather, we tire of having to seem impressive."
"You have a tendency to firmly attach yourself to anything older and female, collecting mothers in a way."
Both of these things are very true in my life.
Im putting in place new rules:
1400
Slimfast for (breakfast and lunch) along with one of the following:
an egg/fruit/salad/soup/or a half sandwich.
(Dinner) Vegetables, meat, grain, and fat
(Snacks-2) Veg/fruit/yogurt/rice cakes/nuts
(Drinks) Coffee, tea, water, diet soda
Exercise- 1 hour of cardio a day.
Penalties
30 minutes additional cardio per 200 calories over 1400 limit.
Eat 500+ over your limit?? =One hour of cardio additionally to your normal hour. PLUS
10x10 of body weight exercises such as:
Scissor kicks, bicycle crunches, tricep dips, squats, burpees, lunges, mnt climbers, etc...
Thursday, February 27, 2014
No more options, no more delays
So once again I am coming back from a hiatus in my own personal health movement.
I am going back and forth between being with my boyfriend of 3 years and not knowing if I should be with someone when I don't even love myself to begin with. So we are on a break, again. This is probably the third or fourth break we have taken, the last one was about 8 months long. We grew a bit, but we didn't face the reality of our relationship. Now I am doing that. I need to seek out counseling for my past issues which plague me today. My boyfriend messaged many of my friends and family after I had a nervous break down and declared to him my desire to kill myself. Of course I would never act on these thoughts.. and even my friend and family that he told, told him that. I was pretty embarrassed because I have never really told some of the people he told. People that I work with. -_- I am glad in a way though, because maybe now they will know the everyday struggle that I am battling.
Soapbox aside, I am counting calories, using myfitnesspal again and slowly working out. Can't go hard and can't expect myself to be perfect overnight. I am going back to an old inspiration that I used a couple years ago, the Taralynn girl from undressed skeleton. (http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/) She lost 100 pounds in a year and I am looking at her old menus that she erased. They were pretty low-calorie (1000/1200 range) but she claimed she would add more calories in throughout the day, the 1000 range was for cushion room, or caloric slip ups.
Based on MFP to start losing 2lbs/week I should be eating 1,290k calories a day. To me that's damn low, considering I'm a binge eater. My stomach was sending my brain desperate FEED ME NOW DAMMIT signals all day long. I caved a bit, had birthday cake..but worked out still :) Oh, and I am eating back most of my workout calories so I don't go into starvation mode.
Net calories today: 1,360
I am going back and forth between being with my boyfriend of 3 years and not knowing if I should be with someone when I don't even love myself to begin with. So we are on a break, again. This is probably the third or fourth break we have taken, the last one was about 8 months long. We grew a bit, but we didn't face the reality of our relationship. Now I am doing that. I need to seek out counseling for my past issues which plague me today. My boyfriend messaged many of my friends and family after I had a nervous break down and declared to him my desire to kill myself. Of course I would never act on these thoughts.. and even my friend and family that he told, told him that. I was pretty embarrassed because I have never really told some of the people he told. People that I work with. -_- I am glad in a way though, because maybe now they will know the everyday struggle that I am battling.
Soapbox aside, I am counting calories, using myfitnesspal again and slowly working out. Can't go hard and can't expect myself to be perfect overnight. I am going back to an old inspiration that I used a couple years ago, the Taralynn girl from undressed skeleton. (http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/) She lost 100 pounds in a year and I am looking at her old menus that she erased. They were pretty low-calorie (1000/1200 range) but she claimed she would add more calories in throughout the day, the 1000 range was for cushion room, or caloric slip ups.
Based on MFP to start losing 2lbs/week I should be eating 1,290k calories a day. To me that's damn low, considering I'm a binge eater. My stomach was sending my brain desperate FEED ME NOW DAMMIT signals all day long. I caved a bit, had birthday cake..but worked out still :) Oh, and I am eating back most of my workout calories so I don't go into starvation mode.
Net calories today: 1,360
Saturday, January 4, 2014
Monday, March 18, 2013
phase 2, day 2
Well today is going alright so far. :)
low cal brownie (90) egg whites (36)
tea (0) when I get to work.
snack- wasa (35) 1/2 cup raspberries (32)
lunch- 3 oz chicken(85), spinach(5), wasa
(35)
snack- strawberries (30)
dinner- 3 oz cod (80) broccoli (35)
and toss a nonfat latte in there for good measure (90) lol
low cal brownie (90) egg whites (36)
tea (0) when I get to work.
snack- wasa (35) 1/2 cup raspberries (32)
lunch- 3 oz chicken(85), spinach(5), wasa
(35)
snack- strawberries (30)
dinner- 3 oz cod (80) broccoli (35)
and toss a nonfat latte in there for good measure (90) lol
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Phase 2, Day 1..EPIC FAIL
Okay, so I failed today. Naturally. :/ Okay, I shouldn't be so negative, sorry. But really. Can't I fucking do anything right??? >_<
Breakfast- 2 egg whites, 9 raspberries, black tea.
Got to work.. wasn't feeling completely awake, but it wasn't too bad. But around 8:30 I was starving. I kept watching people buy fatty foods and mochas and lattes and all this shit.... I just couldn't stand it. The hunger would come in waves and I'd feel faint. So i nom nom'd a blueberry bagel (210) with a (70 calorie) cream cheese packet. *sigh*
I was definitely in a "fuck it" sort of mood, so I got an americano with soy (60) 1 pump sf hazelnut (5) and halfnhalf (90), drank half of all that.
lunch, wanted to binge, but I ended up eating my chicken (85) and rest of my raspberries (30) and two ranch-buffalo chips (20).
snacks- 2 light wasa crackers (70), 1/2 fuji apple (50), light sobe (15), sample of lemon lb cake (35)
Got home.. ate a whole box of annie's mac n cheese; 700 calories. Fuck.
So todays total! *drumroll* 1,467. Super-de-douper. Go me. WIN. -_-
Let's try this again tomorrow.
Breakfast- 2 egg whites, 9 raspberries, black tea.
Got to work.. wasn't feeling completely awake, but it wasn't too bad. But around 8:30 I was starving. I kept watching people buy fatty foods and mochas and lattes and all this shit.... I just couldn't stand it. The hunger would come in waves and I'd feel faint. So i nom nom'd a blueberry bagel (210) with a (70 calorie) cream cheese packet. *sigh*
I was definitely in a "fuck it" sort of mood, so I got an americano with soy (60) 1 pump sf hazelnut (5) and halfnhalf (90), drank half of all that.
lunch, wanted to binge, but I ended up eating my chicken (85) and rest of my raspberries (30) and two ranch-buffalo chips (20).
snacks- 2 light wasa crackers (70), 1/2 fuji apple (50), light sobe (15), sample of lemon lb cake (35)
Got home.. ate a whole box of annie's mac n cheese; 700 calories. Fuck.
So todays total! *drumroll* 1,467. Super-de-douper. Go me. WIN. -_-
Let's try this again tomorrow.
Saturday, March 16, 2013
HCG, mini tabs
So I have decided that I am going to attempt the HCG diet. I am taking NiGen's HCG Solution mini-tablets. I was very skeptical of course because many people have said that "your stomach cannot absorb HCG, so a pill form doesn't work." So I will see what happens. I believe though, that subsisting on 500 calories a day though will force me to lose weight no matter what though, so whatever. Something has to give.
I can't live like this anymore. But doing it the healthy way takes too long. I just want to not see the 200 number anymore on the scale. Once I start seeing 170ish I will feel like I am making some progress, then, I will begin doing it the healthy way again. I just need something to get my faith back in myself. :/
So. Here goes phase 2!
Plan for tomorrow morning:
1 cup of tea (0), 2 egg whites(32), and 1/2 cup raspberries(32)
Snack: 1 wasa light rye cracker (35), egg white (16)
Lunch: 3.5 ounces of chicken (87), 1 cup asparagus (27), tea (0)
Snack: 1 wasa light rye cracker (35), 1/2 apple (54)
Dinner: 3.5 ounces swai fish (95), 1/2 apple (55), 1 cup spinach (5), decaf tea (0)
Oy. Even to me it looks like I'm signing my death certificate -_- But apparently with the pills, I won't be hungry and I'll be losing like crazy. I'll post my beginning weight tomorrow along with my measurements. I'll be taking my measurements every 2 weeks (so every other sunday), and weighing myself daily.
I can't live like this anymore. But doing it the healthy way takes too long. I just want to not see the 200 number anymore on the scale. Once I start seeing 170ish I will feel like I am making some progress, then, I will begin doing it the healthy way again. I just need something to get my faith back in myself. :/
So. Here goes phase 2!
Plan for tomorrow morning:
1 cup of tea (0), 2 egg whites(32), and 1/2 cup raspberries(32)
Snack: 1 wasa light rye cracker (35), egg white (16)
Lunch: 3.5 ounces of chicken (87), 1 cup asparagus (27), tea (0)
Snack: 1 wasa light rye cracker (35), 1/2 apple (54)
Dinner: 3.5 ounces swai fish (95), 1/2 apple (55), 1 cup spinach (5), decaf tea (0)
Oy. Even to me it looks like I'm signing my death certificate -_- But apparently with the pills, I won't be hungry and I'll be losing like crazy. I'll post my beginning weight tomorrow along with my measurements. I'll be taking my measurements every 2 weeks (so every other sunday), and weighing myself daily.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Fatter, but determined
So i am officially OBESE according to medical standards. so much for my amazing diet right? Instead i turned to bingeing for the past two years and Im now 200 pounds. Oh yeah.
You read that right.
200 pounds. Mmm.
Sexy.
Well, actually I'm 197 today. So that's a bonus.
Intake
2 1/2 cups ww pasta
1cup shredded mexican cheese
2TBPS butter
1/2 cup tuna. (i ate about 3/4 of this whole "meal"
6 oz hot chocolate w/ 2% milk.
3/4 of a gargutuan sandwich from jimmy johns *minus the ham*
2 swiss rolls
then went on a 30 minute walk/jog thingy. yay!
Think i'll have some celery soon. That's it. Idfk about calories today. I'm watching for the love of nancy and looking at wannarexia sites lol. I know they're pathetic. I don't have to explain my reasons for watching these movies or looking for tips, 'cause fuck you that's why. It's my life, it's my body. I'll do what I damn well please. If I decide to get skinny as fuck again, I will. If I wanna be a 300 pound whale, that's what I will do. Because it is MY choice. No one else's. No one can do the work for me to lose weight. And no one can digest the food to gain the weight for me either. So keep your god damn opinions to yourself. Got it? :)
Thanks, have a great night.
NOW Some thinspo.
You read that right.
200 pounds. Mmm.
Sexy.
Well, actually I'm 197 today. So that's a bonus.
Intake
2 1/2 cups ww pasta
1cup shredded mexican cheese
2TBPS butter
1/2 cup tuna. (i ate about 3/4 of this whole "meal"
6 oz hot chocolate w/ 2% milk.
3/4 of a gargutuan sandwich from jimmy johns *minus the ham*
2 swiss rolls
then went on a 30 minute walk/jog thingy. yay!
Think i'll have some celery soon. That's it. Idfk about calories today. I'm watching for the love of nancy and looking at wannarexia sites lol. I know they're pathetic. I don't have to explain my reasons for watching these movies or looking for tips, 'cause fuck you that's why. It's my life, it's my body. I'll do what I damn well please. If I decide to get skinny as fuck again, I will. If I wanna be a 300 pound whale, that's what I will do. Because it is MY choice. No one else's. No one can do the work for me to lose weight. And no one can digest the food to gain the weight for me either. So keep your god damn opinions to yourself. Got it? :)
Thanks, have a great night.
NOW Some thinspo.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Yesterday and Today
Yesterday 8/5/11
I am actually not sure of my total intake. I have been drinking a lot of coffee with cream (whole or 2%) and a few pumps of vanilla syrup. Those have been throwing me off a bit. But I think I landed in the 1,800 mark.
I also did a beginning running program.. :)
"Week 1: Run one minute, walk 90 seconds (repeat 8 times), cool down afterwards for 5 minutes.
Do this three times a week."
I should have waited to start this until next week because now the "week one" will bleed into what should be week 2. :/ Oh well. Could just call that a practice day. :P Or call this week one with just two running days since I couldn't do anything today because I overdid it friday. :( Very sore legs!
Today!
Oatmeal (200)
1/2 cup bluberries(50)
1 tblspoon whole milk (10)
1/2 of a small nf cafe au lait with 2 1/2 pumps vanilla (about 155)
3/4 cup rice pudding (195)
Small banana (100)
Medium salad (120)
Whole wheat pita (130)
laughing cow(35)
Coffee samples(35)
1/2 cup bluberries(50)
3 cups multigrain cheerios(330)
1/2 cup 2% (55)
Salmon fillet (90)
Herbs and lemon(10)
small sweet potato(75)
butter(25)
1/2 teasp sugar(10)
1,675
Not toooo horrific. Been worse. :/
I am actually not sure of my total intake. I have been drinking a lot of coffee with cream (whole or 2%) and a few pumps of vanilla syrup. Those have been throwing me off a bit. But I think I landed in the 1,800 mark.
I also did a beginning running program.. :)
"Week 1: Run one minute, walk 90 seconds (repeat 8 times), cool down afterwards for 5 minutes.
Do this three times a week."
I should have waited to start this until next week because now the "week one" will bleed into what should be week 2. :/ Oh well. Could just call that a practice day. :P Or call this week one with just two running days since I couldn't do anything today because I overdid it friday. :( Very sore legs!
Today!
Oatmeal (200)
1/2 cup bluberries(50)
1 tblspoon whole milk (10)
1/2 of a small nf cafe au lait with 2 1/2 pumps vanilla (about 155)
3/4 cup rice pudding (195)
Small banana (100)
Medium salad (120)
Whole wheat pita (130)
laughing cow(35)
Coffee samples(35)
1/2 cup bluberries(50)
3 cups multigrain cheerios(330)
1/2 cup 2% (55)
Salmon fillet (90)
Herbs and lemon(10)
small sweet potato(75)
butter(25)
1/2 teasp sugar(10)
1,675
Not toooo horrific. Been worse. :/
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
How do I abandon this blog so often?
So I am back from a 9 day trip to California (first time being there). Wow... everyone there is HOT. Its not even fair. I felt pale, soft, and fat the entire time. But it also gave me a reason to start trying NOW so that by the time summer comes around again... I will be HOT as well. :D
So I am going to really try hard to stop bingeing. I saw this article about this girl (age 19) who died from bingeing and purging. Very tragic. The article claimed that her stomach was stretched so far that it went from the bottom of her rib cage to her pubic area. DAMN. That's terrifying. I don't purge... I just binge. I don't even exercise afterwards. I just beat myself up mentally for it the next day... So today I am doing better. I am still going to include yesterday as part of my diet even though I binged because I think its stupid to keep "starting over". Its self-defeating and makes me depressed.
Today.
Oatmeal (200)
Rapsberries (100)
1/4 cup 2%milk (40)
Honey (15)
SIXTEEN CUPS of air-popped popcorn with
3 tablespoons of white cheddar seasoning. :( I should really stop making air-popped popcorn. It would be healthy if I could not sit down and eat the whole bowl without even getting full....
I dunno the exact calories and don't care to either.
Wish me luck for the remainder of the day.
So I am going to really try hard to stop bingeing. I saw this article about this girl (age 19) who died from bingeing and purging. Very tragic. The article claimed that her stomach was stretched so far that it went from the bottom of her rib cage to her pubic area. DAMN. That's terrifying. I don't purge... I just binge. I don't even exercise afterwards. I just beat myself up mentally for it the next day... So today I am doing better. I am still going to include yesterday as part of my diet even though I binged because I think its stupid to keep "starting over". Its self-defeating and makes me depressed.
Today.
Oatmeal (200)
Rapsberries (100)
1/4 cup 2%milk (40)
Honey (15)
SIXTEEN CUPS of air-popped popcorn with
3 tablespoons of white cheddar seasoning. :( I should really stop making air-popped popcorn. It would be healthy if I could not sit down and eat the whole bowl without even getting full....
I dunno the exact calories and don't care to either.
Wish me luck for the remainder of the day.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I am back on track, once again. :)
Yesterday went okay... til I had a grilled cheese sandwich at midnight lol fail.
Today
2 low-fat oatmeal raisin chewy bars -180
medium pear-96
pb&J- bread-90 peanut butter-140 sugar-free jam-15 (245)
coffee with creamer-55
3/4 package of 100 calorie oreo thins -80
4 tablespoons fat free reddi-whip -10
14 pretzels-77 mustard-0 (120mg sodium)
743 (so far)
Oh and I have already done 40 minutes of running (-340 calories!)
Today
2 low-fat oatmeal raisin chewy bars -180
medium pear-96
pb&J- bread-90 peanut butter-140 sugar-free jam-15 (245)
coffee with creamer-55
3/4 package of 100 calorie oreo thins -80
4 tablespoons fat free reddi-whip -10
14 pretzels-77 mustard-0 (120mg sodium)
Oh and I have already done 40 minutes of running (-340 calories!)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
The day before yesterday I did fine until my boyfriend and I went to this amazing eccentric coffee shop. I ended up having a generous sized slice of Lemon Poppyseed cake. :(
Yesterday I did my cardio(35 minutes) and was at a happy 1,440 calories... then I went out with friends and had a small slice of blueberry cheesecake (200) chips and cheese (300) 6oz of beer (100) :(
FAIL.
Today! :)
I'm at about 875 so far (8pm :D) . I am going to have a turkey burger (150) with a bun (100) tomato(20) lettuce (5) mustard(0) miracle whip(15) dill pickles (0) 1/2 baked sweet potato(80) 1 tablespoon butter (50)
chocolate dipped-strawberry(110)
1,404 I didn't do cardio today but I did walk around a bit.
Yesterday I did my cardio(35 minutes) and was at a happy 1,440 calories... then I went out with friends and had a small slice of blueberry cheesecake (200) chips and cheese (300) 6oz of beer (100) :(
FAIL.
Today! :)
I'm at about 875 so far (8pm :D) . I am going to have a turkey burger (150) with a bun (100) tomato(20) lettuce (5) mustard(0) miracle whip(15) dill pickles (0) 1/2 baked sweet potato(80) 1 tablespoon butter (50)
chocolate dipped-strawberry(110)
1,404 I didn't do cardio today but I did walk around a bit.
Monday, May 2, 2011
OY! Another break in posting. :(
Okay! So I have been running pretty consistently so far..
Thursday- 40 minutes running (even jogged 1.5 miles non-stop :D) and relaxed in jacuzzi, oh yeah!
Friday-40 minutes
Saturday- 30 minutes on the treadmill and 13 minutes on the "EFX" or Elliptical trainer
and yesterday (sunday) I ran 33 minutes outside (hills included)
I am currently trying to figure out if I should take a break after five days straight of cardio... or during that five days?
I want to workout today cause I feel like I'm being lazy, but maybe I should give it a rest...
Thursday- 40 minutes running (even jogged 1.5 miles non-stop :D) and relaxed in jacuzzi, oh yeah!
Friday-40 minutes
Saturday- 30 minutes on the treadmill and 13 minutes on the "EFX" or Elliptical trainer
and yesterday (sunday) I ran 33 minutes outside (hills included)
I am currently trying to figure out if I should take a break after five days straight of cardio... or during that five days?
I want to workout today cause I feel like I'm being lazy, but maybe I should give it a rest...
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Yesterday went semi-okay.
Had about 1,680 calories, but I was on my bike for about three hours. So I probably burned at least 400 calories. :)
So... 1,280
I have lost sight of what I want though by falling to temptation to carbs. I will post a picture to remind myself what I'm trying to do and what I want more. :)
Had about 1,680 calories, but I was on my bike for about three hours. So I probably burned at least 400 calories. :)
So... 1,280
I have lost sight of what I want though by falling to temptation to carbs. I will post a picture to remind myself what I'm trying to do and what I want more. :)
Hells yeah! This girl is my COMPLETE inspiration at the moment. She went from 200lbs to 111!! Not by starving. Not by KILLING HERSELF AT THE GYM but by cutting out sugar, processed carbs, fat, and unnecessary calories in drinks and toppings (salt, fatty dressings for salad, croutons, etc.)
Although I don't know if replacing sugar (even cane sugar-which your body will process much easier than chemicals like contained in Splenda) with chemicals is better... I guess its not too bad of an approach. I mean look at her. Holy shit.
Treat your body well and it will love you back. :)
TODAY!
One and 1/2 cups fiber 1 cereal (180) cup of almond milk(unsweet) 40, 1/2 grapefruit-30
(250)
Snack: 1/2 grapefruit-37 1/2 cup applesauce-50 egg white(3)-52
(139)
Lunch: PB&J bread-90 1.5 tablespoons peanut butter-150 2 tablespoons jam(sugar-free)-20, 1/2 cup cottage cheese-80
(340)
Snack: 4 servings sugar-free jello (40) wheat thins (260)
(300)
Dinner: salmon fillet (180) veggies (35) sweet potato (180) butter (40)
(395)
Total: 1,424 :) Not too bad. I will also do cardio tonight so that should burn at least 300 calories.
Woot woot!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Mini binge. :(
So today went so so. It was avery high stress day since I had to work by myself for 4 hours. That was awesome.
Breakfast- toast-90 sugar free jam-30 grapefruit-45 yogurt-90
Snack- 10 0z skinny vanilla latte-95 1 cup diced pineapple-100
Lunch- bread-90 turkey-45 mustard-0 ice burg lettuce-5 baby carrots-20 1/2 cup non-fat cottage cheese-80
Snack- 4 strawberries-20, animal crackers-170, 1/2 cup almond milk-20, tapioca-70, apple-80
binge- 2 weight watchers big cookie ice cream bars-260 reddi whip-40 3 cups popcorn-20 :(
dinner- chicken-90 veggies-40 sauce-50
And the grand total is.... 1,520! So lol I guess its not all that horrific. BUT STILL. I need to like control myself. Jeez.
Breakfast- toast-90 sugar free jam-30 grapefruit-45 yogurt-90
Snack- 10 0z skinny vanilla latte-95 1 cup diced pineapple-100
Lunch- bread-90 turkey-45 mustard-0 ice burg lettuce-5 baby carrots-20 1/2 cup non-fat cottage cheese-80
Snack- 4 strawberries-20, animal crackers-170, 1/2 cup almond milk-20, tapioca-70, apple-80
binge- 2 weight watchers big cookie ice cream bars-260 reddi whip-40 3 cups popcorn-20 :(
dinner- chicken-90 veggies-40 sauce-50
And the grand total is.... 1,520! So lol I guess its not all that horrific. BUT STILL. I need to like control myself. Jeez.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Not too bad today. I guess.
I had 1,635 today :S I don't know if that's really all that great but it's been worse I guess. I haven't done my exercise for tonight yet either. Its getting late so I will probably just do a video, or maybe I will get the guts to go to the gym for once. IF I go to the gym.. I will treat myself to sauna or steam room and the hot tub... makes it so much more tempting. :)
We'll see lol. Buses do not run very late so I don't know yet.
We'll see lol. Buses do not run very late so I don't know yet.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Plan for tomorrow :)
Breakfast: small banana(100) 1 tablespoon p.b.(95) two egg whites (34) bread(45)
Snack: Plum(40) 1/2 cup plain yogurt(45)
Lunch: Wheat Thins (130) Non-fat cottage cheese (80) 1 cup sliced cucumber (17) plum (30)
Snack: 1/2 cup pudding (40) apple (80)
Dinner: 1 cup veggies (34) salmon (100) 1 cup rice (200)
Dessert: 1 cup sugar free jello (20) reddi whip (10)
1,105
Snack: Plum(40) 1/2 cup plain yogurt(45)
Lunch: Wheat Thins (130) Non-fat cottage cheese (80) 1 cup sliced cucumber (17) plum (30)
Snack: 1/2 cup pudding (40) apple (80)
Dinner: 1 cup veggies (34) salmon (100) 1 cup rice (200)
Dessert: 1 cup sugar free jello (20) reddi whip (10)
1,105
So I failed yesterday. Naturally. Okay that's negative thinking, and negative thinking usually just gets me depressed. It sucks I ended up eating like 5 handfulls of his popcorn and probably half his bag of candy. Oink. :(
I even brought my own snacks. I just don't understand. I think it was just nerves from all the pop-out horror action of the movie. well, I'll just handle it differently next time!
Today. I had a mini-binge on rice cakes and peanut butter. BUT I stopped myself. Now I'm at 650 calories at 1:25pm. Not too bad. Could be worse. :)
Plan for the night:
plum(30) 1/4 cup nuts(150)
Salmon teriyaki steak(160) 1/2 cup edamame (120) sweet baked potato(150)
1,260 :D Not bad!! Plus I will be doing some at-home workouts cause I know I will NOT want to go outside nor to the gym tonight.
I even brought my own snacks. I just don't understand. I think it was just nerves from all the pop-out horror action of the movie. well, I'll just handle it differently next time!
Today. I had a mini-binge on rice cakes and peanut butter. BUT I stopped myself. Now I'm at 650 calories at 1:25pm. Not too bad. Could be worse. :)
Plan for the night:
plum(30) 1/4 cup nuts(150)
Salmon teriyaki steak(160) 1/2 cup edamame (120) sweet baked potato(150)
1,260 :D Not bad!! Plus I will be doing some at-home workouts cause I know I will NOT want to go outside nor to the gym tonight.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Starting to get back to normal intake...
Yesterday started out pretty well until 3/4 box of crackers later (120 calories per serving, which is a mere SIX crackers and there's 10 servings per box... ) Lol I'm scared to know what my total was.
TODAY!
Tons of food which equaled 1,705. Minus 150 from 40 minutes of running -150
Grand total! 1,555
Not too terrible. About to go to the movies now. :) So I think I will go and invest in some sugar-free candy to keep mah mouth busy lol, and avoid my boyfriends candy I'm going to buy him.
TODAY!
Tons of food which equaled 1,705. Minus 150 from 40 minutes of running -150
Grand total! 1,555
Not too terrible. About to go to the movies now. :) So I think I will go and invest in some sugar-free candy to keep mah mouth busy lol, and avoid my boyfriends candy I'm going to buy him.
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