I am back on track, once again. :)

Yesterday went okay... til I had a grilled cheese sandwich at midnight lol fail.

Today

2 low-fat oatmeal raisin chewy bars -180

medium pear-96
pb&J- bread-90 peanut butter-140 sugar-free jam-15 (245)
coffee with creamer-55

3/4 package of 100 calorie oreo thins -80
4 tablespoons fat free reddi-whip -10
14 pretzels-77 mustard-0 (120mg sodium)

743 (so far)

Oh and I have already done 40 minutes of running (-340 calories!)

The day before yesterday I did fine until my boyfriend and I went to this amazing eccentric coffee shop. I ended up having a generous sized slice of Lemon Poppyseed cake. :(

Yesterday I did my cardio(35 minutes) and was at a happy 1,440 calories... then I went out with friends and had a small slice of blueberry cheesecake (200) chips and cheese (300) 6oz of beer (100) :(

FAIL.

Today! :)

I'm at about 875 so far (8pm :D) . I am going to have a turkey burger (150) with a bun (100) tomato(20) lettuce (5) mustard(0) miracle whip(15) dill pickles (0) 1/2 baked sweet potato(80) 1 tablespoon butter (50)
 chocolate dipped-strawberry(110)

1,404 I didn't do cardio today but I did walk around a bit.

OY! Another break in posting. :(

Okay! So I have been running pretty consistently so far..

Thursday- 40 minutes running (even jogged 1.5 miles non-stop :D) and relaxed in jacuzzi, oh yeah!
Friday-40 minutes
Saturday- 30 minutes on the treadmill and 13 minutes on the "EFX" or Elliptical trainer
and yesterday (sunday) I ran 33 minutes outside (hills included)

I am currently trying to figure out if I should take a break after five days straight of cardio... or during that five days?

I want to workout today cause I feel like I'm being lazy, but maybe I should give it a rest...

Yesterday went semi-okay.

Had about 1,680 calories, but I was on my bike for about three hours. So I probably burned at least 400 calories. :)

So... 1,280


I have lost sight of what I want though by falling to temptation to carbs. I will post a picture to remind myself what I'm trying to do and what I want more. :)

Hells yeah! This girl is my COMPLETE inspiration at the moment. She went from 200lbs to 111!! Not by starving. Not by KILLING HERSELF AT THE GYM but by cutting out sugar, processed carbs, fat, and unnecessary calories in drinks and toppings (salt, fatty dressings for salad, croutons, etc.)

Although I don't know if replacing sugar (even cane sugar-which your body will process much easier than chemicals like contained in Splenda) with chemicals is better... I guess its not too bad of an approach. I mean look at her. Holy shit.

Treat your body well and it will love you back. :)

TODAY!

One and 1/2 cups fiber 1 cereal (180) cup of almond milk(unsweet) 40, 1/2 grapefruit-30

(250)

Snack: 1/2 grapefruit-37 1/2 cup applesauce-50 egg white(3)-52

(139)

Lunch: PB&J bread-90 1.5 tablespoons peanut butter-150 2 tablespoons jam(sugar-free)-20, 1/2 cup cottage cheese-80 

(340)

Snack: 4 servings sugar-free jello (40) wheat thins (260)

(300)

Dinner: salmon fillet (180) veggies (35) sweet potato (180) butter (40)

(395)

Total: 1,424 :) Not too bad. I will also do cardio tonight so that should burn at least 300 calories.

Woot woot!

Mini binge. :(

So today went so so. It was avery high stress day since I had to work by myself for 4 hours. That was awesome.

Breakfast- toast-90 sugar free jam-30 grapefruit-45 yogurt-90

Snack- 10 0z skinny vanilla latte-95 1 cup diced pineapple-100

Lunch- bread-90 turkey-45 mustard-0 ice burg lettuce-5 baby carrots-20 1/2 cup non-fat cottage cheese-80

Snack- 4 strawberries-20, animal crackers-170, 1/2 cup almond milk-20, tapioca-70, apple-80

binge- 2 weight watchers big cookie ice cream bars-260 reddi whip-40 3 cups popcorn-20 :(

dinner- chicken-90 veggies-40 sauce-50

And the grand total is.... 1,520! So lol I guess its not all that horrific. BUT STILL. I need to like control myself. Jeez.

Not too bad today. I guess.

I had 1,635 today :S I don't know if that's really all that great but it's been worse I guess. I haven't done my exercise for tonight yet either. Its getting late so I will probably just do a video, or maybe I will get the guts to go to the gym for once. IF I go to the gym.. I will treat myself to sauna or steam room and the hot tub... makes it so much more tempting. :)

We'll see lol. Buses do not run very late so I don't know yet.

I will even add ONE photo of myself.... (with fuzzy hair, sorry lol, just took french braids out.)